All I have needed Thy hand hath provided - let's talk about trauma

Matt. 13:23 But the one sown on the good earth, this is he who hears the word and understands, who by all means bears fruit…

These past two days, I notice that I've been quite wrapped up in my own thoughts. Yet this morning when I pray-read the verse, I feel the need to set my eyes on the things above. I want to be the one who hears the word and understands. Many times we thought we understood, yet in reality, we are veiled by many things so that the Word of God doesn't seem applicable to our situation. However, this indeed shows us that "we do NOT understand". I pray that the Lord take all veils away, so I can not only hear His Word, but also have this understanding so that I can cooperate with Him for Him to grow Himself into me. 

Who by all means bears fruit....This is what I need as well. More and more I realised that bearing fruit is not what we normally think (e.g., preaching the gospel and gaining new believers). Of course, preaching the gospel for the Lord to gain new believers is a way to bear fruit, but this is not the only one way. Through some testimonies that I've read and known, I realised that even quietly bearing the cross is a way to bear fruit if this is what God has assigned to us. Yes, indeed, I've got trauma and I want it not be a hindrance in my communication with my husband. However, whether this will eventually turn out to be okay or not, this is still not what I should focus on. What I need to focus on is Christ, then sure, if I have this supply and guidance to use all well-learned techniques to deal with my trauma, it will be so. The point is - have I got Christ as my primary goal? 

I focused too much on my trauma and how I could express myself better in a relationship, yet forgot that Christ is the very nutrients for me to grow and the purpose of my life. I need not other advice before I meet my Lord Saviour. He provides all nutrients and supplies me with everything I need to face problems each day. 

All I have needed Thy hand hath provided—
“Great is Thy faithfulness,” Lord, unto me! 

----------- (hymnal 19)