A new beginning, and my God is sovereign

New Beginnings 

The Lord has given us each day, each month, each season and each year as a new beginning. To me, our Creator God has provided all these "new beginnings" to give us a new reminder: We can hope because we are given new beginnings all the time. 

Yesterday we visited the commune and to be honest, it was annoying to have to explain the documents in detail once again, and we have been doing a lot of the work in explanation to justify our documents requested by the government throughout the entire year. It was frustrating, and when I finally got home and had time to work on my thesis, the triggered emotions disabled me to do what I need to do. My mind was racing. I tried to take a break, and when I got back to work, my mind was racing again. To me, a pitiful human being, when something was not going so well, I felt the entire day was ruined. However, I forgot that my Lord is giving us so many new beginnings so we can always start afresh. Things that went wrong in the morning can stay in the morning. If it didn't stay in the morning, you could process it in the afternoon and let the evening be another new beginning to rest from all anxieties. 

God is the New Beginning

Apart from the reminder of "time", the Lord Himself is also a "new beginning". 

His Word is "I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End." (Rev. 22:13). 

He is the new beginning. Our constitution is altogether old unless we open to this God in Newness. When we open to Him, there is a new beginning. 

It's almost the final months of my thesis writing, and I realised how much I have missed out on the past year. Not saying that I don't enjoy being with my husband as a newlywed couple in the past year. However, as God allowed many challenges in dealing with practical matters, I sometimes forgot to come forward and enjoy the Lord during these processes. Most of the time, I am driven in various directions to address the issues that occurred and forgot to anchor myself in Christ. 

Finally, now, in September. September reminds me of how little time I have to write up my thesis so I panicked. There was a time I was a bit upset with the Lord- if He would arrange things smoothly for me, I would have finished a lot of things then. However, a voice deep inside of me says differently. It's a hope of trusting that the Lord is still sovereign. Yes, my God is still sovereign even seeing me going through all these (seemingly ridiculous) processes. But it was not ridiculous, it was a process that would make my husband and myself more like Christ. So, instead of panicking, I've made the decision to take up the "New Beginning" and to note down my journey with Christ, especially during these previous times of writing up my thesis. He is sovereign. As He began my journey in this way, He is and will surely accompany me towards the end. 

Praise Him, the God who is sovereign in all my situations. I can count on Him and never need to lose hope because I am given new beginnings all the time.