Living to Him

 "for this matter is of Me" (1 Kings 12:24, RCV)  My child, I have a message for you today; let me whisper it in your ear, that it may gild with glory any storm clouds which may arise, and smooth the rough places upon which you may have to tread. It is short, only five words, but let them sink into your inmost soul; use them as a pillow upon which to rest your weary head. This thing is from Me. Have you ever thought of it, that all that concerns you concerns Me too? For, “he that toucheth you, toucheth the apple of mine eye” (Zech. 2:8). You are very precious in My sight. (Isa. 43:4) Therefore, it is My special delight to educate you. I would have you learn when temptations assail you, and the “enemy comes in like a flood,” that this thing is from Me, that your weakness needs My might, and your safety lies in letting Me fight for you. Are you in difficult circumstances, surrounded by people who do not understand you, who never consult your taste, who put you in the background...

I was enjoying some hymns and this one "virgins we must be wise and pure" stood out to me.  In stanza two:  Not only my lamp, Lord, but my vessel too, Redeeming the time to be filled up with You. I’m going forth to meet You, my Bridegroom so dear. I know then at midnight You’ll soon, Lord, appear. (Chorus) Lord, I love You above all, Watching hourly lest I fall. We would buy the oil today. Lord, prepare us, oh, get us ready! I think one thing I realised more and more in the marriage is that, no matter what you do and try to improve, your spouse has a way to disappoint you. Even when you adjust your expectations again and again, this still happens. This evening I got really exhausted and disappointed again. I didn't want to feel like a victim or being trapped in my feeling so I came forward to Him. I hid my face in my palms to pray. Pray to Him concerning all discouragement and bitterness to Him. When I felt released, I went to cook a proper meal for myself and at the...